Author: Brandie

  • Deliberation – Chapter 2. Third Time’s a Charm

    “Q?” Dani called aloud. Just a moment ago, she’d been in her family’s Indiana home. Now, she was on Cardassia Prime? What was Q up to?

    “What was that, my dear?” came a call from the bathroom.

    Dani turned in the direction of the bathroom, intending to walk over, but when she took her first step, she immediately realized that something was different, something about her body. She looked down at herself. She was pregnant. Really pregnant.

    Dukat appeared in the bathroom doorway, and Dani plopped down on the bed, speechless. “Darling, are you feeling well?” Dukat asked her, walking over in his robe. He sat down beside her. “Danielle?”

    Dani stared at him, tears building in her eyes. He was alive again. Could it really be? How? She reached up and stroked his face. “I’m fine,” she told him.

    “Are you sure?” he asked her. “You look like you’re about to burst into tears. What’s the matter?”

    “Nothing. I’m fine.”

    Dukat placed his hand on Dani’s swollen belly. “Is it time?” he asked.

    “No, no,” Dani assured him. “I’m fine. I promise.” She covered his hand with hers.

    “Maybe I should stay home today,” Dukat suggested. “I want to make sure you’re okay.”

    “Marac, I’m fine. I think I just got up a little too quickly. I was a little light-headed for a moment. I’m okay. Okay? Go to the office. I’ll be alright. Besides, if anything happens, Rowat will be here.”

    Dukat nodded. “You’re right, of course. I just want to make sure you’re going to be okay here.”

    “I will be,” Dani said. “And if I’m not, you have my permission to gloat and hold it over my head for as long as you’d like.”

    Dukat’s expression softened as the worry left his features. He kissed her and grinned. He stood and returned to the bathroom.

    This was Dani’s dream-come-true. Dukat was alive again, and she was pregnant again with their child. “I don’t know what you did, Q,” Dani whispered, “but thank you.”

    Xxx

    There were so many choices. Dani marveled at all the different flavors of ice cream that the replicator had to offer. She was having a difficult time deciding between Rocky Road and Pralines ‘n Creme. She’d just have to get both, she concluded.

    “Computer, one pint of Pralines’ n Creme and one pint of Rocky Road,” Dani requested from the replicator. “And two scoops of Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough ice cream.” She watched anxiously while her order materialized. When it was all there waiting on a nice tray for her, she could hardly wait to dig in. She picked up the tray and waddled back over to the bed. She activated her bedside lamp and picked up a spoon. She didn’t know which one to start with first.

    Beside her, Dukat moved. “What are you doing?” he asked sleepily.

    “I had a sudden craving for ice cream,” Dani said.

    “But it’s nearly four in the morning,” Dukat said, yawning. He propped himself up on his elbow and looked at the tray Dani had replicated. “You’re going to eat all that?”

    “I couldn’t decide what I wanted,” Dani said a bit sheepishly.

    Dukat pushed himself to a sitting position. “What did you do? Order the entire menu?”

    “No … I forgot the sardines.”

    “Sardines?” Dukat’s brows furrowed as he searched his memory. “Aren’t those small fish?”

    “Yes! Will you get some from the replicator?”

    “I don’t think it’s programmed.” Dukat lay down, shifting back to a sleeping position.

    “But I really want some.”

    Dukat closed his eyes. He knew where this was going, and he didn’t like it. Why couldn’t she just be happy with the ice cream and the thousands of other choices programmed into the replicator? “Darling, isn’t there anything else that you would like?”

    “No. Right now I want sardines. Now.”

    Dukat had been through eight pregnancies before. He knew the futility of trying to talk through this rationally, because there was no rationale this early in the morning. She was going to bug him until she got the damned sardines, so he might as well get up and be on his way.

    “Okay, darling, I’ll go out and get them right now,” Dukat obliged and reluctantly forced his eyes open. He sat up, swinging his legs over the side of the bed and placing them on the floor. Of all the days, she had to get a craving for sardines when both Melba and Rowat were away. If only this craving had come a few hours later, when Melba and Rowat would have returned. And she had to want something that no one could find on this side of the planet. Dukat would have to transport all the way to the other side of Prime to find these things.

    He stood and wandered over to the closet, found some pants and a shirt, and pulled them on. He hoped this place that he was going to was open. If not, he would have to order them to open just for him. He would have to see about having someone sell these sardines closer to home.

    Xxx

    The foot rub that Dukat had given Dani before he’d left for work had been pure heaven for her swollen ankles. When he’d returned with her sardines, her feet had begun to ache, so he’d sacrificed more sleep and masssaged them. His hands had worked magic, and she wished that he could have stayed home from the office today. She felt like she was about to pop.

    And then she started to. Dukat had been gone for a few hours already, and the lunch hour was approaching. Dani was on her way down stairs, headed for the dining room for lunch, when something inside her changed, and she knew what it was.

    She walked into the kitchen, holding her belly and breathing a sigh of relief when she saw that Rowat was there. That meant she wouldn’t have to go anywhere else to find him. “Rowat,” she said to him.

    Rowat was sitting at the table when Dani walked in. One look at her, and he knew immediately that something was wrong. “What is it?” he asked.

    “I just had a contraction,” Dani told him. “I think it’s time.”

    “Time?” Rowat repeated. “You mean time?” Dani nodded. Rowat sprang to his feet and was at Dani’s side immediately. He led her over to a chair and gently seated her. “Get us a transport,” Rowat directed Melba, who stood nearby.

    “Yes, sir,” she said, disappearing into another room to take care of the transport.

    Rowat turned his attention back to Dani. “How do you feel?” he asked her.

    “I’m okay right now,” she said.

    “Are you in any pain?” he asked.

    “A little. But it’ll probably get worse.”

    “We’ll have you to the hospital shortly,” Rowat informed her. “We would do a site-to-site transport, but they say it isn’t recommeded for pregnant women except in cases of extreme emergency.”

    Dani nodded. “Sounds like you’ve been studying.”

    “I wanted to be sure I’d be prepared in case something like this happened.”

    “Ohhh, I think – I think something’s happening. I’m having a contraction. Ay, ow, ow, OW!”

    “Here, take my hand,” Rowat offered. “Just breathe through it. Easy, now … there you go … breathe … that’s right. Good.”

    Melba reappeared. “The transport is ready, sir,” she informed Rowat.

    Rowat nodded. “Okay, Lieutenant, nice and slowly, we’re going to get up, walk outside, and get into the transport, okay?”

    Dani nodded. “Where’s Marac?” she asked. “Somebody call him.”

    “Don’t worry; we will. Right now, we have to see about getting you to the hospital. Okay, nice and easy. Put your weight on me to stand.”

    Xxx

    “Where’s Marac?” Dani asked again. She was in a delivery room at Capital Medical Facility, but the father of her child was no where to be seen. In his place was Rowat, who now stood beside her bed holding her hand. “Did something happen to him?” Dani continued, panic rising in her voice. “Why isn’t he here, yet? Hasn’t he commed?” Tears sprang to her eyes. Where was he? He wouldn’t miss this. Something must be wrong. Something must have happened.

    “Don’t get upset,” Rowat said, trying to calm Dani while silently cursing Dukat. He’d always had great respect for the man, but his not being here to witness something this important was making Rowat question his beliefs about the man he so admired.

    The grip on his hand tightened significantly, indicating to Rowat that Dani was experiencing another contraction. “You have got quite a grip there,” Rowat told Dani, offering an encouraging smile. “With strength like that, why do you need me around?” Dani seemed to smile, but it turned into a grimace as the contraction came full-on.

    “Doctor, isn’t there something more you can give her for the pain?” Rowat asked.

    Xxx

    Dukat’s body was at the meeting, but his mind was miles away. He’d gotten the call over an hour ago that Dani had gone into labor. He didn’t want to be anywhere else but in that delivery room with her, but this damned meeting was something at which his presence was required. He couldn’t get out of it even if he were having the baby himself.

    This waiting was unbearable. The doctor had informed them of the fact that Dani was probably going to have a difficult labor. He hated that she had to go through this without him.

    The beeping from his comm unit brought Dukat back from his thoughts. Everyone at the conference table looked his way. “Dukat here. What is it?”

    “Sir, there’s a message for you.”

    “Tell them I’ll get back to them,” Dukat said.

    “Sir, it’s urgent. It’s from the hospital.”

    Dukat’s heart rate skyrocketed. “I’ll take it in my office.” He stood and looked at his colleagues. “Escuse me while I take this.”

    When Dukat reached his office, he sat down behind his desk nervously. He’d had eight children. One would think he’d be used to this by now, but he wasn’t. He had felt the exact same way when each of his children had been born. He activated the monitor and Dr. Lurok’s face filled the screen.

    “Legate Dukat,” he began, “it’s my pleasure and honor to inform you that you are the father of a brand new, healthy son.”

    “A son … “

    “Should I tell the staff to make arrangements for your immediate arrival, sir?” Lurok asked.

    “Tell them I’ll be there later tonight.”

    The doctor hadn’t expected that response, but if that was what he wanted … “Yes, sir.”

    “Doctor, how is Danielle?” Dukat asked.

    “She’s fatigued, understandably,” Lurok began. “There was a time when I thought we would have to go in surgically, but fortunately it didn’t come to that. I expect her to make a full recovery.”

    Dukat nodded regretfully. “Will you tell her that I’ll be there as soon as I can get away from the office.”

    Lurok nodded. “I’ll tell her, sir.”

    Xxx

    Dani felt like hurling something across the room. She couldn’t believe he’d missed it. He’d missed it!

    When Dukat did finally walk into the room, it was after 2300 hours. It took all the self-control that Dani could muster not to launch her water glass at him.

    “Danielle?” Dukat said warily.

    Dani looked at him, daggers in her dark eyes. “So, you couldn’t get away,” she said through a clenched jaw.

    Dukat didn’t say anything at first. Then, “You have every right to feel the way you do,” he said.

    “You’re damned right, I do,” Dani seethed. “You missed the birth of our child. Our child, Marac. And why? Because you couldn’t get away from a meeting?”

    “Danielle, words can never express how sorry I am,” Dukat said.

    “This was one of the most important days of our lives. That meeting was more important than our son’s birth?”

    “You know me. You know that if there had been any way that I could have been here, I would have, but it’s a very sensitive, very complicated situation.”

    “I know, I know,” Danielle said, visibly calmer. “I really don’t want to hear it right now. I’m too tired …” She looked over at him and saw the genuine concern in his eyes. She had told herself that she wouldn’t give in and forgive him so easily. She cursed herself for being so weak. “Would you like to see your son?” She knew the answer. The question had only been a matter of formality. She pressed the comm panel on her nightstand. “Nurse, could you bring my son in, please?”

    Moments later, the room doors slid open, and a nurse entered with a wiggling little bundle in her arms. She walked over and carefully handed it to Dani. “Thank you,” Dani said, dismissing the nurse. Dani smiled down at the baby boy. “Hi there, little guy. How are you?” She turned her eyes on Dukat while she still spoke to the boy. “Are you ready to meet your daddy? He’s here – finally.”

    Dukat walked over to the bed. “Say hello to your daddy,” Dani said, gently handing the boy over to his father, who seemed completely at ease with a baby in his arms. A man with as many children as he should be.

    “Well, hello there,” Dukat said to the baby. “I’m your father.” Captivated, Dukat studied the child. There was no doubt about his Cardassian heritage, but his ridges and scales were less pronounced than a full-blooded Cardassian baby’s would be. And he stared up at Dukat with the most luminous brown eyes, courtesy of his mother. Dukat gently stroked the child’s forehead before looking over at Dani. “He’s amazing. He’s so beautiful.”

    “I know,” Dani said. She smiled, watching them. The baby reached up and grasped one of Dukat’s gray fingers with his tiny hand, eliciting a small chuckle from the father. “Look at that grip,” he boasted, gazing down at his son. “He’s so perfect.”

    A bright flash surrounded Dani, and her hospital room disappeared as it was replaced by the bedroom in Dukat’s house. She was holding her son and standing at his crib. Somehow, she knew that they’d just finished dinner and it was time for bed. Memories that she didn’t even know she had made their presence evident in her mind. She and Dukat had named the child Nathan Marac Janeway, and six months, she realized, had passed since his birth.

    Dani gently placed little Nate in his crib. He was sound asleep after a very active dinner. She stared down at him, just happy to have him asleep. He could be so fussy at times, a trait Dani figured must come from his father.

    Speaking of Dukat, Dani suspected that he should be home any minute, now. Dani glanced at the chronometer on the wall. 1930 hours. He should be walking in the door shortly. She looked over at Nate one last time to make sure he was okay before leaving the room. She yawned, walking into hers and Dukat’s bedroom. She hadn’t had the chance to read the day’s news reports, yet. Since Nate had arrived, she hadn’t had time to do much of anything. Reading the news had fallen to the bottom of the list, unfortunately. It was something that she’d tried to do almost religiously. She’d experienced what could happen if she didn’t keep up with the news on a regular basis. That could lead to … surprises, like when she’d read the news after weeks of neglecting to do so and discovered that Starfleet thought she was a hero for remaining in Cardassia, instead of the traitor she envisioned herself to be.

    Since Nate had come into her life, though, she estimated that she probably hadn’t read any news reports in about three weeks. Before that, it had been nearly two months. And even in those rare instances that she had gotten the opportunity to check up on current events, she hadn’t been able to go in depth and had simply skimmed the headlines.

    Dani sat down at the computer terminal and activated it. She accessed the news for the day, requesting that all the contents on the monitor appear in English. The first thing that appeared on the screen froze Dani. Initially, she thought it was a joke, but it couldn’t be; it was a legitimate news source. But her mind still couldn’t conceive what her eyes were seeing on the screen before her.

    ‘Legate Dukat to wed prominent socialite,’ was the headline. Dani’s watery eyes flittered down the screen as she read more of the article, which went on to discuss the engaged couple’s six month relationship and the plans for their impending wedding ceremony, which was to be ‘the social event of the year.’

    “Danielle?”

    Dani looked up from the screen at the sound of her name. Dukat was in the doorway. When he saw Dani’s face, the fresh tears that rimmed her eyes, he knew that she knew what he had come to tell her. He hadn’t wanted her to find out this way. It was so cruel. Why hadn’t he told her before now? But he couldn’t dwell on the possibilities that had passed him by. There was no time for that.

    When he walked into the room, Dani stood. She felt completely humiliated, and despite her best efforts not to cry, she did. For each step Dukat took toward her, she took one back, away from him. Finally, she was against the wall, but he wasn’t even halfway across the room. Dukat crossed the remaining difference between himself and the computer terminal. Viewing its display, he cursed. He looked over at Dani, who looked like she was about to break down. “Danielle, I didn’t intend for you to find out like this.”

    Dani couldn’t believe what she was hearing. Some small part of her had held onto the unlikely belief that perhaps it was a mistake. But here it was – the prime source, confirming the truth of it all.

    Dukat spoke again. “Danielle, I’m sorry,” he told her. “I’m so sorry.”

    “Six months?” Dani said, finally speaking.

    “Please, my love, allow me to explain,” Dukat said.

    “What is there to explain? You’re marrying another woman.”

    “My dear, it isn’t what you think,” Dukat insisted. “It isn’t what it appears to be.”

    “Then what is it?” Dani demanded. She was getting angry, now. She didn’t appreciate being patronized, and that is exactly what she felt Dukat was doing to her now. She walked over to the bed and sat.

    Dukat followed. “I don’t love her, Danielle,” he said. “I love you.”

    “Why are you marrying her?” Dani asked. As if answering her own question, she looked up at Dukat. “Is she pregnant?”

    “No,” Dukat replied, apparently appalled by the prospect. “This is a move that is purely political in nature. It’s for my career. That’s all. A marriage of convenience.”

    “It sure as hell isn’t convenient for me!” Dani sobbed.

    “Oh, Danielle – I never wanted to hurt you. Never. You know that.” His words head no impact. Dani sobbed even harder, which is why he didn’t want to tell her the rest of the news that wasn’t in the the reports. “My love, I’m afraid there’s more,” he said.

    Dani looked skyward. “Gods, what more could there be?” She looked at Dukat expectantly.

    “You and Nate have to leave,” Dukat revealed.

    “What?! No. No, I’ve – what?” Dani sputtered. “Why? I thought you said this was just a political move?”

    “It’s simply necessary, my dear,” Dukat began to explain. “It wouldn’t be right for appearances if you remained after Rubula moved in.”

    “Move in?” Dani didn’t understand. She didn’t understand how her world could be turned upside down in a matter of minutes when before it had been perfectly fine.

    “Danielle, I love you,” Dukat insisted again. “You and Nate. Except for my other children, you’re the only ones.”

    “How can I believe that?” Dani asked, on her feet again. “How can I believe anything you say anymore? You’re kicking me out!”

    “No. I’m merely sending you to the house on Four. I’ve had it remodeled. It should be more than adequate for you, Nate, Rowat, and Melba.”

    “You’re sending us away. Out of sight.”

    “Danielle, that isn’t the way it is.”

    “That’s what it looks like.”

    Dukat sighed. “It’s just better. It will be better for everyone.”

    “Even for your son?” Dani questioned.

    “Especially for him.”

  • Deliberation – Chapter 1. A Visit

    Story #7 in the “More Than a Lifetime” series

    Author’s Note: This story is the seventh in a series of stories that do not follow canon and should not be taken as such. The previous stories, in order, are: 1) Delta Wild, 2) Homecoming, 3) Graduation, 4) A Love Less Ordinary, 5) Return to Normal, and 6) Sweetest Sin. The events in these stories occur in an alternate universe in which Chakotay’s stint with the Maquis happened much earlier in his life. He is married to Kathryn Janeway, and they have a daughter. In this universe, Voyager did not combine with a crew from a Maquis ship, but instead reached the Delta Quadrant with a small loss of life and most of her crew in tact. The events of “First Contact” and “Insurrection” have already occurred in this timeline, but “Nemesis” has not. The Dominion War occurred, but with vastly different results. Many of the events of the final season of Deep Space Nine didn’t occur, which means the characters that died during the season are not dead in my stories. Please overlook any other inconsistencies or errors pertaining to the original Star Trek universe as the author’s ignorance.

    This story contains mature themes, language, and sexual situations.

    Disclaimer: All the characters, except Dani and other original characters who do not appear on screen or in print, belong to Paramount. I do not own them or claim to. This story was produced and is presented purely for the enjoyment of the readers. I don’t make any money from this, and this story may not be used for any such purpose. If you wish to use my story for purposes other than monetary gain, please do so, as long as my name and this disclaimer remain attached to it.

    1. A VISIT

    Life could be so simple. If she could just spend the rest of her days in the simplicity she was experiencing now, everything would be okay.

    But Dani Janeway was still a young woman with more days ahead than behind. Even though she wanted to, there was no way she could convince herself that she’d be happy just doing nothing. That was unreal.

    No. She had to make sure her time here on Earth, in Indiana, in her family’s house, was temporary. A vacation. Even if she didn’t end up going back to Starfleet.

    Dani’s first few years in Starfleet had definitely not gone as she’d expected. She’d known a life in the ‘Fleet would involve danger and risk, but she’d assumed that she would just experience her share, like everyone else, and go on with her life. But it seemed that things had been different for Janeway the moment she’d become an Ensign. She’d set foot on Deep Space Nine, and who was one of the first people she’d befriended? Tora Ziyal – Dukat’s daughter. What had happened next? She’d become romantically involved with Dukat.

    Things hadn’t gotten any better by the time she’d transferred to the Enterprise. She couldn’t just go to the Enterprise and lead a normal life. No … her first night, who shows up? Q – and his son. Throw in a couple of covert missions, the rescue of a Federation dignitary from a Cardassian prison, and a reunion with a not-so-dead Dukat, and it all equaled up to a very active beginning of a Starfleet career.

    Dani was tired. Burned out emotionally. She didn’t want to do it anymore. She’d experienced more pain in the last three years than she had in all of her life prior to that. And she didn’t have anything to show for it. Nothing at all.

    Was it worth it? Where would this kind of life lead for her? Where would she be in 20 years? She had no doubt that she would be able to move up the ranks and eventually take her own command one day, but what about her personal life? Family? Would she end up alone?

    Dani sighed. It was nearly 4:00 in the morning, and she was no closer to sleep than she had been at 10:00 the previous evening. Her eyes fluttered open when a flash of light appeared in her dark bedroom.

    “Cousin,” a shadowed voice said. “Did I wake you?”

    Instantly, Dani knew who was in her room. It was her ‘cousin’, Q.

    Dani sat up in her bed. “No, Q,” she said, replying to his question. “Actually, I hadn’t had the chance to doze off, yet.”

    Q stepped closer to the bed. “Computer – lights,” Dani called. She looked at Q. “You’ve changed your appearance.” His hair, which had been short and closely cropped the last time she’d seen him, was now longer and shaggier.

    “Yes,” Q concurred. “I’ve been experimenting with some new styles. What do you think?”

    Dani looked him over. For the first time since she’d first met him, he wasn’t wearing a Starfleet uniform. He was dressed simply, in a pair of jeans and a button-down shirt. She nodded. “It works for you.”

    “Better than a Starfleet uniform?” Q asked.

    Dani grinned. “Much.” Q smiled and nodded. “So, is something wrong, or is this just a visit?” Dani asked, getting out of bed. She padded over to the replicator and ordered a raktijino. “You want something?”

    Q shook his head. “No thanks. I never really got the hang of that whole eating thing.”

    Dani nodded, retrieving her drink from the replicator bay and walking over to a chair, in which she sat, curling her legs under her. Q sat on the bed. “So, is something wrong?” Dani repeated her question.

    “Actually, yes,” Q said.

    Dani took a sip from her mug. “What is it? I mean, I don’t know if I can help you or not, but I’ll do what I can.”

    “Well, first of all, the problem doesn’t have anything to do with me.”

    “Who does it involve, then?”

    “You.”

    Dani froze. “Me?” she asked, placing her mug on the table next to her. She searched Q’s features for any sign of playfulness, but she saw that he was lacking any manner of joviality. “You’re serious.”

    “Very,” Q confirmed. “Dani, I’ve been watching you for a while now.”

    “Q, I thought we agreed – no more spying!”

    “No, I wasn’t watching you like that. I mean that I was keeping an eye on you. Monitoring your situations, if you will.”

    “Since when?” Dani asked curiously.

    “Since you went to Cardassia,” Q revealed. “I was … worried.”

    “There wasn’t any need to be worried, Q,” Dani told him.

    “I know that now. But I was, nevertheless. And I still am. Only now, it’s for a different reason.”

    “What are you talking about?”

    “Dani, I know you’re thinking about leaving Starfleet.”

    “That’s right.”

    “You can’t”

    “What?”

    “You can’t leave Starfleet, Dani.”

    “Why the hell not?” Dani asked, her feathers obviously ruffled by Q’s statement. She didn’t like people telling her what she could and could not do, what decisions she had to make. Q knew that, she knew, so she didn’t understand why he was saying what he was saying.

    “Dani-” Q began, but thought better of it. “I can’t tell you.”

    Dani stood. “Look, I’m not cut out for this. I can’t deal with it anymore. Everything I do only ends up with these horrible results.”

    “That’s not true,” Q argued. “You helped me.”

    Dani shook her head dismissively. “You know you weren’t ever in any real danger, Q.”

    “I know, but you knew that, too,” Q reminded her. “The point is that you still risked your life to save me. I wouldn’t call that a horrible result.” Q stood, facing Dani. “Dani, you can’t leave Starfleet.”

    “Why?”

    “Because … ” Q was looking for the right words. He didn’t want to reveal specifics, but if he was going to convince Dani that her place was in Starfleet, he would have to give her something to latch onto. “Because you’re going to be part of something big. Something important.”

    Dani looked at him with questioning eyes. Q went on. “I can’t tell you what it is, but you’re going to be instrumental to the survival of humankind.”

    “What?” Dani asked, disbelieving. “Me?”

    “Just trust me, okay? I’m trying to do you a favor. You helped me; now I’m going to help you. You cannot leave Starfleet.”

    “Help me? By telling me I can’t leave Starfleet? That’s some big help, Q.”

    “No. I’m here to help you in another way.”

    Dani had turned her back on Q, but now she turned to face him again. Q continued. “I know you haven’t had it easy lately. I’ve come to realize, during my time among humans, that death is a difficult thing to deal with.”

    Dani saw where Q was going with this, and she made an attempt to cut it off. She shook her head. “I don’t want to talk about this, Q.” She walked over to the window.

    Q nodded. “I realize that, but we have to because that’s where the problem is.” Q walked over and joined her at the window. “You need to get your head together.”

    Dani whirled around to Q. “Get my head together? I just watched the man I love die! He died in my arms!”

    “I know that. I saw the whole thing.” Dani calmed visibly, and Q spoke again. “You’re torturing yourself, Dani, dwelling on what might’ve been with Dukat. I know you loved him. But please believe me when I tell you that it wasn’t meant to be for you and him.”

    “Marac and I were so good together. The age, the species, the politics – none of that mattered. We were connected. How could we not be meant to be together?”

    “You really think your life would be better if Dukat were still alive?” Q asked.

    “How could it not be?” Dani replied. “We would probably be married by now. I’d be happy.”

    “I guess this is when the help session begins, then, Cousin,” Q said with snap of his fingers. In a flash of light, Dani’s bedroom in Indiana was replaced by the bedroom she’d shared with Dukat at his house.

  • Sweetest Sin – Chapter 9. Scratch

    When Dani materialized in the Enterprise’s transporter room, familiar faces awaited her. Captain Picard, Will Riker, Counselor Troi, Kathryn Janeway and Chakotay all watched on eagerly as Dani’s form solidified. She had hardly taken one step off the transporter pad when her parents engulfed her. It was as if they were in too much of a hurry to even take turns. Both of them embraced her at the same time.

    “Welcome home,” Chakotay said, a huge grin on his face.

    “You don’t know how relieved we are to have you back,” Kathryn beamed.

    “It’s good to be back, “Dani said, with a little smile. It was the truth. It was nice to be back in a place where the majority of the population didn’t hate you. She’d had two days to grieve for Dukat and look at the situation more objectively while being transported to Federation space. While she knew it would be a long while before she would be over Dukat, she was no longer in the state of shock she’d been in the night her life had changed – again.

    Dani looked from her parents to Captain Picard, Will and Deanna. “Captain,” she greeted.

    “Lieutenant,” Picard said. “I told you we would find a way to get you home.”

    “I know,” Dani said. She silently wished that they wouldn’t have been successful. Living among Cardassians hadn’t exactly been the highest point in her life, but she would gladly return if it meant she could have Dukat back. How ironic that the decision she had dreaded making months ago was now crystal clear. She looked up at Picard, trying her best to look happy, but feeling somehow that she was failing. “I never doubted that you or anyone else here would keep trying.”

    Picard smiled gently. “Welcome home, Lieutenant.”

    “Thank you, sir,” Dani said.

    Deanna had watched the interaction between Dani and her parents and now watched the exchange between the woman and the captain. What she found odd about the entire ordeal was that she didn’t pick up any sense of elation or joy from Dani. On the contrary, there was an overall sadness about the lieutenant that seemed out of place for someone who was returning home from captivity.

    Picard continued. “We’ll be on a course to Earth within the hour,” he informed Dani. “Starfleet wants to debrief you as soon as possible.”

    Dani nodded. She’d expected that. In fact, she’d been preparing for it and would continue to prepare for it until the Enterprise arrived at Earth.

    “Right now, I suspect that you want to see your quarters again,” Picard surmised.

    “Yes, sir,” Dani said.

    “Very well. I’ll let Will escort you.”

    Dani nodded and turned to her parents. “Let’s have dinner later on, okay?” she suggested.

    “Whatever you want to do,” Kathryn said.

    Dani smiled and turned to Will next. “After you,” he said, gesturing to the door. Dani led the way out of the transporter room.

    “How was your trip?” Will asked once they’d left the others.

    “It was fine – considering … ” Dani said. Her trip from Cardassia had been uneventful, even peaceful, providing her much time for reflection. The others on the little ship left her to herself in her little cabin, which was the way she’d wanted it.

    “Dani,” Will began, “what happened was not supposed to happen.” He felt the need to speak on the matter, even though he expected it would still be a touchy subject for her. “Killing Dukat was never part of the plan.” Will, along with Captain Picard and Admiral Necheyev, had received a report on what had transpired on Cardassia’s surface. Will, who had held a crucial role in the planning of the rescue attempt, had never called for Dukat’s murder. He knew that doing so would have crushed Dani. But somehow, it had happened anyway, and it was obvious, at least to him, that Dani was having a difficult time dealing with it. “You were supposed to leave Cardassia, but Dukat was supposed to be remain alive.”

    “Well, that isn’t the way it happened, is it?” Dani reminded him. She didn’t see the use in him telling her what should have happened. It wouldn’t make any difference. “Dukat’s dead, and there’s nothing anyone can do about it.”

    She and Will walked into a waiting turbolift. He hated that she was so upset. She wasn’t outwardly angry or sad, but inside was a different story. There was something in her voice and her eyes that was painfully melancholy. “Do you want to talk to someone about this? Deanna maybe?” he asked after giving the lift its command. The car began to move.

    “I think that would be a good idea,” Dani admitted. “There’s a lot I’m trying to cope with right now. I know that I can trust her.”

    The lift doors opened after a short ride. “I’ll have her meet you in your quarters at whatever time is convenient for you.”

    Dani nodded. She and Will walked to her quarters in silence. When they reached her door, Dani input the code, which she initially thought she’d forgotten. The doors slid open and she walked in, finding that the area was as she had left it. A little smile couldn’t help but come to her lips. The place was a mess.

    A little box sat in the middle of the floor. It was the only new addition to the room, but Dani knew exactly what it was. She quickly walked over to it and opened the grated door at its front. Sherlock scurried out to Dani and began to lick her face in his customary fashion.

    Will looked on, a surprised expression on his face. “Who’s this?” he asked.

    Dani looked up at him, smiling. “This is Sherlock. He was a gift.” She picked up the little dog and walked over to Will with it. “Sherlock, meet Will Riker. Will Riker – Sherlock.”

    “Very pleased to meet you,” Will said, delivering a nice scratch to the crown of the dog’s head. He looked at Dani. “I can’t wait ’til Data hears what you named him.”

    “Actually, I didn’t name it,” Dani revealed. “I think he already had the name when Dukat got it from the trader.” Dani bent down and the dog jumped from her arms onto the floor. When she stood upright again, she saw that Will seemed to be studying her, trying to assess her appearance. “What?”

    “How do you feel?” he asked.

    “What? You mean physically?”

    “Yeah.” It didn’t seem to Will that pregnancy was having that much of an effect on Dani’s physique. If he’d calculated correctly, she was supposed to be over three months along. Maybe Cardassian growth rates were different from humans.

    Dani looked at him oddly for a moment before it became clear to her why he was so concerned about her health. “Will, I’m not going to have a baby,” she told him regretfully. “I lost it a few weeks back.”

    “Oh, Dani. I’m so sorry. What happened?”

    “I don’t know.” She walked over and sat on the couch. “The doctor has been trying to pinpoint what the problem was, but he doesn’t really know, either.”

    “I’m sorry to hear that.” Will walked over and sat beside Dani. “You would have made a great mother.”

    Dani smiled unexpectedly. “You know, you saying that reminds me of that conversation we had about kids. Back before I left? I said that kids were a long way off into my future and that I didn’t want to pass on my messed up genes anyway.” She let out a little laugh. “It’s funny – who knew that that far off future would only be a few months away?” She looked at Will, her smile fading. “What are people saying about us? What all do they know?”

    “I haven’t made any kind of elaborate announcement, if that’s what you mean,” Will said. “I think everyone pretty much assumed that the plans for the wedding were on hold once the news about Starr broke. Then, after our meeting, I sent out a mass message to let everyone know officially that the wedding was off.”

    Dani nodded. “That’s good. I hate to think about what might have happened if thousands of people showed up for a wedding that wasn’t going to happen anymore.”

    Will chuckled. “You have to admit – it would be kind of funny, wouldn’t it? Kind of like the ultimate practical joke.”

    Dani laughed, too, an image of the whole scenario popping into her head. “Yeah.”

    The door chime interrupted them. “Come in,” Dani said. The doors slid open, and Deanna Troi walked in. Dani and Will stood.

    “I just came by to see how you were settling back in,” Deanna said with a smile.

    “Okay,” Dani said. She managed to return Deanna’s smile. “It’s a little strange. I feel like I’ve been gone for years, but it’s only been a couple of months. It’s nice being back.”

    “I thought you might like to talk,” Deanna said, testing the waters.

    Will took this as a cue for him to make his exit. “I’ll leave you two alone,” he said, beginning to make his way to the door.

    Dani called to him before he could leave, though. When he turned and looked at her, she said, “I’d really appreciate it if you would stay.”

    The request caught Will by surprise, and he glanced at Deanna briefly. “Okay. I’ll stay, if you want.”

    “I do, if you don’t mind,” Dani said.

    “You know I don’t.” He walked back over to the couch.

    Dani looked to Deanna. “Won’t you sit down?” She watched as the counselor sat in a chair next to the couch. “I’m sorry about the mess,” Dani said, sitting back down on the couch, Will also reclaiming his seat beside her. “I haven’t exactly gotten around to cleaning, yet. When I left, I was sort of in a hurry … “

    “It’s quite all right,” Deanna assured her. “Sometimes, a little disorder is a good thing.”

    “Don’t I know it?” Dani said. “It seems like every time my life seems to get a little order in it, something happens to disrupt it.”

    “Why don’t you tell me about that?” Deanna suggested.

    Dani looked at Will and then back at Deanna. Before she went any further, she had to make sure she knew the rules that were going to apply here. “Everything I tell you is confidential, right?” Dani asked. “You can’t go back and tell Captain Picard or Admiral Nechayev what I said?”

    “Everything that is said here stays here,” Deanna said. “I’m here to help you; not betray your trust.”

    Dani nodded. “Then there’s something you have to know before I tell you anything about what’s happened over the last three months.”

    “Okay. Go ahead.”

    Dani sighed deeply. “First of all, I feel like the biggest fraud in the universe,” she said.

    “A fraud? Why would you feel like that?”

    “Because what Hea Starr told you wasn’t exactly the truth about what happened,” Dani began to explain. “Well, it’s the truth as he saw it, but he didn’t see what he thought he saw. I didn’t choose to remain on Cardassia because I thought it would ensure his freedom; I stayed because I wanted to be with Dukat.” Her eyes looked up at the ceiling. She couldn’t believe she was actually volunteering this information. “I couldn’t pass up another opportunity to be with him, so I basically turned my back on everything I knew. But Starr saw me do it, and he must’ve thought … the point is, everyone thinks I’m this hero, but I’m not. I’m just a selfish deserter.”

    “Dani, it isn’t selfish to want to be with someone you love,” Deanna said.

    “I know, but duty was supposed to come first, over anything else, and I ignored that. I shouldn’t even be in Starfleet anymore. Do you know that what I did is grounds for a court-martial? People have been let go for a lot less.”

    “You can’t beat yourself up about that,” Deanna comforted. “You didn’t have any control over what Starr thought.”

    “I could correct it, though,” Dani said.

    Deanna realized what Dani was offering to do. She didn’t think it was a very wise course of action, considering that it would probably effectively end her Starfleet career. “If that’s what it takes for you to be happy with yourself, then that’s what you should do,” Deanna advised. “But you should only do it if it’s going to make you feel better about yourself. Don’t do it because you think other people will respect you for it.”

    Dani nodded. In all actuality, she had contemplated telling the truth about the nature of her purpose on Cardassia. But ultimately, she’d decided against it. What purpose would it serve now that everything was said and done?

    “I have something else I need to tell you,” Dani said. “It’s something that you probably need to know to counsel me effectively, I guess. I was pregnant … but I miscarried. The father was Dukat.”

    “Dani … ” Deanna trailed. The woman really had been through a lot.

    “No, wait. There’s one more thing I want to say before you say anything else,” Dani said. “I loved him. With every fiber of my being. But if it meant that he could be alive today, I would have never chosen to stay on Cardassia with him.” She choked up and had to stop for a moment. “Excuse me. I’m sorry,” she said, once she had regained her composure. “I’ve come to realize that the reason he is dead today is me. If I had never gone to Prime, there would have been no rescue attempt. And he’d be alive.”

    Xxx

    Jean-Luc Picard was standing at his replicator sipping on a fresh, steamy mug of Earl Gray tea when his ready room door chimed. “Come,” he beckoned. The doors slid open and his ship’s counselor sauntered in. “Counselor – what can I do for you?”

    “I’ve just had a meeting with Dani Janeway,” Deanna said.

    Picard walked from around his desk and settled into one of the chairs across the room. Deanna claimed the small sofa across from him. “How is she?” Picard inquired.

    “Not good,” Deanna admitted.

    “Oh, dear,” Picard said. He had suspected as much earlier when Janeway had first transported aboard. She’d seemed a little out of sorts for a person being reunited with her family. “What seems to be the problem?”

    “Dani is dealing with a lot of emotions at the moment,” Deanna said. She wanted to give the captain a good idea of what was going on with one of his officers, but at the same time, she didn’t want to reveal anything Dani had been adamant about keeping secret. “I can’t go into much detail, but she’s dealing with guilt, grief, loss. She’s trying to hold it together on the outside, but I’m afraid she won’t be able to keep it up much longer. If she doesn’t get some rest soon, there could be some serious emotional damage.”

    Picard leaned back in his seat and crossed his legs. He could order the counselor to tell him the cause of these feelings Janeway was having, but he knew Deanna wasn’t one to talk about her patients. He could only guess at what, or who, was at the root of these feelings, but he had more than an inkling about what was going on. “Counselor, have you ever heard of Stockholm syndrome?”

    Deanna thought for a minute. That name sounded familiar … then it came to her. “Yes, sir,” she said. “That’s a condition that hostages sometimes develop. They begin to identify with their captors. In extreme cases, the hostages no longer wish to be free and actually want to join the people who abducted them.”

    “That’s right,” Picard said. “Could that possibly be an explanation for Janeway’s condition?” He knew that wasn’t it. But it would offer ample explanation. Especially to Starfleet Command and Headquarters.

    Deanna’s eyebrows rose. It was an avenue she’d never considered … until now. “Yes, sir. I do believe that could explain why Dani has been taking Legate Dukat’s death so hard.”

    “I see … ” Picard said. “And what would be your recommendation on a course of action for Lt. Janeway?”

    “I recommend that she take a medical leave of absence. Immediately. She needs time to recover from this. It’s all been very traumatic for her. I would say she needs at least six months away from active duty, but I suspect it will take her much longer to get completely over this. There’s no guarantee that she will ever be completely over it.”

    “I hear that isn’t unusual for sufferers of Stockholm syndrome,” Picard commented.

    “Not at all, sir,” Deanna replied.

    “Well, then. Make out your report and include diagnosis and treatment suggestions,” Picard said. “I’ll send my recommendations along with yours. I’ll see to it that Lt. Janeway’s leave begins as soon after the debriefing as possible.” He stood, as did Deanna. “Dismissed.”

    Deanna nodded, wondering on the way out if this whole Stockholm business was just a coincidence or if the captain knew more than he’d let on.

    Picard walked back around to his desk. He’d hated that this had all turned out so bittersweet. They’d gotten their people back, but at what cost? The emotional well being of one of his officers? Damn that Nechayev for sending Janeway to Cardassia in the first place. She’d known what she was doing when she’d handed down that assignment. Anything to catch Janeway in the middle of something that would get her kicked out of the ‘Fleet. But Picard had something for the woman that he knew she would never have anticipated. A little-known, nearly forgotten condition that he’d happened to come across in some recent research. The funny part was that any doctor who examined Dani Janeway would probably come to the same ‘conclusion’ he and his ship’s counselor had come to, and there wouldn’t be a thing Nechayev could do about it. The miracles of medicine …

  • Sweetest Sin – Chapter 8. Fallen

    Dani stared at her reflection in the full-length mirror mounted beside the closet. After nearly three months of pregnancy, she didn’t see much of a change in her appearance. Her figure had filled out a little, but much of her shape had remained the same, and she still fit into many of her clothes.

    The major noticeable difference was in how she felt. Mornings were the worst. A few days after she’d found out about her condition, she’d begun to have terrible morning sickness. She hadn’t had a real breakfast in weeks. She just didn’t have the appetite. Every morning, it was the same thing without fail. She would wake up and, after a few moments of lying in bed, would be overcome by an overwhelming feeling of nausea. She would then rush to the bathroom and dive for the toilet bowl. It was miserable. She didn’t know how much more of this she could take. It was torture.

    This morning had been different, oddly enough. Dani had experienced no sickness of any kind. She had even managed to finish a light breakfast. Maybe the morning sickness was wearing off. She was moving into the second trimester of her pregnancy. Perhaps, that had something to do with it.

    When a sharp pain ripped through Dani’s mid-section, she reconsidered. But this didn’t feel like morning sickness or any other pain she’d ever experienced, pregnant or not. It scared her. What if something was wrong … She knew she had to get some help.

    By the time she reached the bedroom door, another, more intense pain rocked her body. The pain was so unbearable, it sent her to her knees and made her cry out. She had to get to a comm unit, but she couldn’t move. There was so much pain, and none of it had subsided. She looked out into the hallway and realized that she wasn’t going to make it down the stairs. Oh, gods – what was she going to do?

    Dani leaned back against the wall, her feet drawn to her chest in a meager attempt to lessen the pain in any way possible. She decided that she would have to resort to the most basic means of summoning help: screaming, which she did, despite the fact that it hurt like hell to do it. She took a deep breath. “Help!” she screamed. Rowat or Melba or somebody had to be around somewhere. “SOMEBODY, please – HELP ME!” she yelled.

    Downstairs, Rowat was speaking with Melba about a recipe when he thought he heard something. He stopped talking. Melba took his silence as her cue to pick up the conversation.

    “Shh!” Rowat instructed. Melba became silent, while Rowat listened. It sounded like someone was calling from upstairs. When he began to make his way up the stairs, the screams became clearer, and he recognized them as Dani’s. He quickened his pace, taking the stairs two at a time. When he reached the second floor, he realized that Dani was in the master bedroom. He entered and found her on the floor, sitting, almost lying, in a fetal position against the wall. His heart rate spiked.

    “Guls … ” he muttered, rushing to kneel beside her. “Lieutenant?”

    “Oh, gods, it hurts so bad,” Dani grimaced, as tears sprung to her eyes. Her arms were wrapped tightly around her midsection.

    “What?” Rowat questioned. “What hurts?” She looked like she was in so much pain. But she didn’t get the chance to answer him because she cried out and leaned forward onto her knees.

    Rowat activated his wrist unit. “Capital Medical Facility – this is Glinn Rowat at Legate Dukat’s residence. I have a medical emergency. Prepare to receive one Terran female. Lock onto our position and transport us immediately.” Rowat scooped Dani up and stood. She was pale, which he knew wasn’t a good sign for Terrans, and she had broken into a cold sweat, but she was still conscious. Seeing her in this state reminded him of the day she had fainted during one of their morning jogs. That had been the day the doctor had told her she would be expecting a child. He hoped that this didn’t t have anything to do with that, but in being truthful to himself, he knew that it probably did. “We’re going to the hospital,” Rowat told her. “Everything will be fine.” He looked at Melba. “Comm Dukat,” he instructed. The maid nodded obediently.

    “Prepare for transport,” the hospital representative’s voice directed. A few seconds later, Rowat disappeared from the room in a gold sparkle of light with Dani in his arms.

    They materialized in a medical emergency room. “Put her down right over here,” one of the doctors directed hastily. Dani soon realized that it was Lurok. If she didn’t feel like her insides were being ripped out, she would have made some smart-ass joke about how they should be on a first-name basis by now, they’d seen so much of each other in the past couple of months. Rowat did as he was instructed, gently laying Dani on a biobed.

    “What happened?” Lurok asked Dani.

    “I have this sharp pain in my stomach,” Dani explained. “It comes in waves and each wave is worse. Please – make it stop. There’s so much pain.”

    Lurok instructed a nurse to inject Dani with a painkiller, which she did. He looked down at his new patient, who seemed to relax visibly after the hypospray. “That should make you more comfortable,” he told Dani. She nodded, feeling the effects of the powerful drug start to kick in.

    A shimmering of light from the other side of the room caught the doctor’s attention. He turned in time to see Legate Dukat materialize. “Great guls … ” he managed, spying Dani on the biobed.

    Dani noticed immediately when Dukat shimmered into existence. “Marac,” she moved to go to her, but the Lurok blocked his path. It was only then that Dukat first seemed to notice the very presence of the doctor.

    “Legate Dukat, perhaps it would be better if you wait outside,” Lurok suggested, gently urging the taller man toward the door.

    “I’m not going anywhere,” Dukat steamed. “What is going on here? What’s wrong with her?”

    “If you would please wait outside, and let me do my job, I could find out,” Lurok said sternly.

    Dukat blinked a few times, not wanting to go but realizing the truth and logic of what Lurok was saying. He nodded and cast a final glance at Dani before he and Rowat complied with the doctor’s request.

    Xxx

    Rowat’s eyes followed Dukat’s feet back and forth across the waiting room floor. He’d been watching those feet for almost an hour.

    “What is that damned doctor doing in there?” Dukat demanded of the air around him. “They should have gotten to the bottom of everything by now.” He’d come out into the waiting room, as the doctor had requested and had initially sat down, but he had been unable to sit for more than five minutes. Now he was pacing, and it was driving Rowat nuts.

    Rowat was about to say something to Dukat about it when Lurok appeared. Rowat stood. Dukat, noticing the change in Rowat, turned to the direction of Rowat’s gaze.

    “Doctor,” Dukat said, quickly moving in on the doctor, “How is my – how is she?”

    “Legate Dukat, we should talk,” Lurok said. He looked at Rowat with a silent plea for privacy.

    Rowat, who caught the silent request, nodded. He looked at Dukat. “I should check on things at the house.”

    Dukat didn’t seem to notice that Rowat had even spoken. He only stared intently at Lurok, worried, scared, anxious. Rowat left the waiting room, giving Dukat and the doctor the privacy they needed.

    “Doctor – please,” Dukat pleaded. He couldn’t take the suspense any longer. If this doctor didn’t tell him something about Dani’s condition right now, he was going to barge into that room, and no one was going to stop him..

    “Legate, I think you should sit down,” Lurok suggested.

    “I will not sit down!” Dukat said, raising his voice. “Now, you will tell me what is going on this instant, or I promise you there will be consequences!”

    “Legate, there really is no easy way to tell you this,” Lurok began. “Your – Lt. Janeway was … ” This was so difficult to say. He hated having to break this sort of news. He struggled briefly to find the words. “Lt. Janeway is no longer pregnant, sir.”

    “Wha … ” Dukat couldn’t have heard the man correctly. “What do you mean ‘no longer pregnant’?” Dukat boomed.

    “She suffered a miscarriage,” Lurok elaborated. Dukat didn’t understand. How could she have miscarried? She was young, healthy. It didn’t make any sense. It felt like all the air had left his lungs. He cleared his throat, as he felt a lump rising in it. “Is she all right?”

    “Yes. I expect her to make a full recovery.”

    “Does she … know?”

    “Yes, sir, she does.”

    Dukat looked down at the floor. All the times he had been a father, and this was the first time he’d ever lost one of his children. “How did this happen?” he asked Lurok.

    “Unfortunately, sir, these things do happen,” Lurok said. He knew the words would be of little comfort to a man in Dukat’s position. A man loses his child, even if it is unborn, and it leaves a pain like no other. “Why did it happen in this instance? I don’t know, yet,” he continued. “It could be anything. Stress, diet. It could be that your DNA and her DNA are not compatible. It could even be that Terran and Cardassian DNA are not readily compatible. The one thing I do know for sure is that I won’t know anything until I can run some tests. Maybe then I will know if this is an isolated problem or not.”

    Dukat took a deep breath, internalizing everything Lurok was telling him. “May I see her?”

    “Of course.” He led Dukat through a set of doors and down a short hallway. Dukat instantly recognized that this was not the same route he’d taken on the way from the emergency room.

    “We’ve moved her to a private room,” Lurok informed him. “Here it is.” They entered the room he had singled out.

    At the sound of the doors hissing open, Dani looked way from the window in time to see Dr. Lurok enter with Dukat. The two of them halted a few paces past the door.

    “If either of you need me, just call,” he instructed before leaving the Dukat and Dani alone.

    Dukat didn’t hesitate a moment more before he was at Dani’s bedside. When she reached out for him, he took her hand and carefully sat on the side of the bed.

    “Marac,” was all that she said. It sounded small, weary, sad.

    “My love,” Dukat said. He gently stroked her tear-streaked face. He opened his arms and readily received her when she came to him.

    Xxx

    “I’m taking some time off,” Dukat told his executive assistant via visual comm link. He was sitting at the desk in his home office three days after Dani’s release from the hospital. “I’ll be away from the office for a few weeks at the very least, unless an emergency arises. And by emergency, I mean a real emergency, as in severely threatening. Otherwise, I do not wish to be bothered. Is that clear?”

    The young man nodded. “I understand, sir. I’ll see to it that things are taken care of while you’re away.”

    Dukat nodded. “Dukat out.” He cut the link. He’d been wanting to take some time off since Dani had arrived on Prime, but he hadn’t been able to find the time. If the events of the past few days had convinced him of anything, it was that the time to get away from work was now.

    He swiveled his chair around so that he was facing the window. He had a perfect view of the back yard from where he was sitting. Dani was in the grass playing with Sherlock. Physically, she seemed to have recovered from her ordeal and actually had a smile on her face. Dukat was less sure of her emotional state, though. He sighed. They needed to get away from Prime for a little while. Maybe it was time for a trip.

    Xxx

    Dukat scanned the room, sipping on his glass of wine. It wasn’t kanaar, but it had its merits.

    He didn’t know why he had agreed to come to this luncheon anyway. The whole point of his vacation was to stay away from work. Instead, a week after he’d informed everyone that he was taking a leave, he was back on the social scene, fulfilling the social responsibilities of his position as Prefect of the Western Hemisphere of Cardassia Prime. This time, the event was being held in the lobby of the building that housed his office. After this, though, he was gone. There weren’t anymore of these functions scheduled for at least two weeks, and in only a week, he and Dani would be on a long-overdue vacation.

    “Dukat, you’re going to get yourself into some serious trouble messing with that girl.”

    The voice of the person who had addressed Dukat had a reprimanding tone that harbored a bit of a teasing quality behind it. There was only one Cardassian he’d known to talk like that. Dukat turned and saw exactly who he’d expected to see standing in front of him.

    “Tulane,” he said. “I didn’t know you were coming.”

    “Am I to understand it you don’t want me here?” Tulane asked, a gentle smile tugging at the corners of his mouth. He was an older man, older than Dukat, and rounder, too. His hair, which had probably once been jet black, as Dukat’s was, had long since gone gray, losing any hint of color. The lines on his face bore the experiences and wisdom of a lifetime, and his light eyes twinkled with a prophetic knowing.

    “Of course I want you here,” Dukat said. “How could I not want my former mentor to take part in all this fun?” He deposited the wineglass he’d been holding on a passing waiter’s tray. “So, Tulane – how are things going for you?”

    “Oh, fine, fine,” the older man said. “Things are simply splendid for you, I see.” He nodded toward Dani Janeway, who stood a good distance away among a group of women she’d become familiar with while attending other social events. They weren’t exactly friends, but they were cordial enough. Dukat’s gaze traveled to Dani, and she happened to look up at the moment and return his gaze. She looks like she’s having fun, Dukat joked silently. He watched her turn back to her group when someone addressed her.

    “I presume you’re speaking of my guest,” Dukat said, returning his attention to Tulane.

    “She’s going to be the death of you, you know,” Tulane prophesied.

    “That’s a little on the dramatic, don’t you think?” Dukat said.

    “No, not particularly.” All hint of joking or humor had left his face and his voice. He was dead serious now. “She’s a Starfleet officer being held prisoner here, Marac.”

    “Only because she broke the law by breaking into a prison,” Dukat reminded him, matching his serious tone. I don’t have to tell you this, Tulane. You already know it.”

    “You know she isn’t just any common prisoner,” Tulane said. The implications behind his words were unmistakable. “Or she wouldn’t be here among Cardassia’s finest.”

    “I’m working on a new program for prisoners,” Dukat defended. “She’s my test subject.”

    At this proclamation, Tulane merely smiled and stepped closer to Dukat. “Are you planning on eventually sharing a bed with all the prisoners on Cardassia?” he asked with a lowered voice.

    Dukat eyed Tulane. It wasn’t a big secret that Dani and Dukat were more than simply host and guest, however they didn’t exactly make a habit of publicizing their relationship. Tulane had always known right where to hit to make his punches felt.

    Tulane continued. “Marac, you have to know that this whole arrangement will never succeed.”

    Dukat afforded a glance across the room to Dani, and then looked at Tulane. “I want to show you something,” he told him. “Come with me.”

    Tulane followed Dukat out of the reception to the nearby lift. They got in and rode the car up to the fifteenth floor, where they exited, and Dukat led Tulane to his office. The younger man walked over to his desk and opened one of his drawers, while Tulane looked on with interest. Dukat pulled out a little box.

    “What’s that?” Tulane asked. He walked over and joined Dukat at the desk. Dukat opened the box and showed it contents to Tulane. A large, glimmering stone encased in loop of pure latinum gleamed from the box. Dukat handed the box to Tulane. “Marac Dukat – does this mean what I think it means?” the old man asked.

    “Only if you’re thinking what I’m thinking,” Dukat replied.

    “You keep it here, in your office?” Tulane asked.

    Dukat smiled. “Leaving it at home is not an option,” he said. “The woman gets into everything. She’d find it in an instant.”

    Tulane studied the ring some more. “It certainly is beautiful. It must have cost a fortune.” He handed the ring back to Dukat.

    “It wasn’t cheap,” Dukat conceded. His Ferengi contact had come through, surprisingly, and had gotten him a good deal. But even with the deal, the ring had probably cost more than many people’s yearly salaries. He looked down at the ring. “No matter how much it cost me, though, it still doesn’t feel like it’s enough.” He closed the box and replaced it in his drawer.

    “When are you planning to ask this life-altering question?” Tulane inquired.

    “Next week. I’ve got some time off, so we’ll have the opportunity to celebrate.”

    Tulane regarded the other man curiously. “So, you’re serious about this?” The look on Dukat’s face left no questions in the as to the seriousness of the situation. “Marac,” Tulane said, “This is risky. Are you quite sure you want to do this?”

    “She’s worth it,” Dukat replied before Tulane even had the chance to ask.

    “You can’t truly believe that she’s going to stay here with you,” Tulane railed.”She’s here against her will. I don’t care what you think she feels for you she still has a life, a family, in the Federation.”

    Dukat slowly approached Tulane, emphasizing the fact that he towered over the other man. “You know nothing of my relationship with her,” he said coolly, even though he was apparently seething. The man before him was a mentor and a friend, but who was he to show up after years and try to tell him what to do with his life? “Everything you think you know about us, forget it, because you don’t know anything at all.” He walked out of the office, leaving Tulane alone.

    When Tulane rejoined the gathering downstairs, he saw that Dukat had rejoined his ‘guest’, Ms. Janeway. The man was smiling outside, but Tulane could see the remnants of their discussion still lingering behind his blue eyes. He watched Dukat and Janeway walk out of the room together, taking their leave of the reception.

    Tulane didn’t care that Dukat was in love with her. She was Starfleet. She didn’t belong here. And he was sure this whole ‘guest/host’ situation didn’t bode too well with the Federation. Having Danielle Janeway on Cardassia was dangerous.

    Xxx

    Dani put her earrings in her ears, and her ensemble was complete. It was the first time she was going to be wearing the royal blue gown that casually hugged her body. The dress was part of the collection that had been waiting for her when she’d first arrived on Prime over three months ago. It was hard to believe she had only been there for three months. So much had happened in that short period of time. It had felt like she’d been on Cardassia for forever.

    Dani studied herself in one of the bedroom mirrors. Her eyes rose to the reflected image of her hair. She’d had a terrible time trying to figure out what to do with it. At first, she’d left it down and was content with leaving it like that. It didn’t look half-bad. But then, she realized that she didn’t like the way her hair seemed to hide her face, and wondered what it would look like if she put it up. So, she’d twisted it up into a style and realized that it would also work. However, her mind got to wondering again, and she was worried that maybe her neck would look too long with her hair up. After alternating back and forth between styles for fifteen minutes, she finally settled on the style that would leave her neck exposed. And then she was ready. She headed for the bedroom door.

    She didn’t know why Dukat had insisted that they dress formally for dinner that night. He’d told her that they weren’t having guests over, and as far as she knew, they weren’t supposed to be celebrating any special occasion, unless one considered the start of a trip special. The next morning Dani and Dukat were leaving on a transport headed for Risa, which was definitely cause to celebrate considering all that had happened.

    Dani paused at the top of the long staircase and saw that Dukat was waiting at the foot, dressed to the nines in a black suit. He turned and looked up at her, and she smiled. He was gorgeous, and he was hers, she thought giddily. She began to descend the sweeping staircase. When she reached the bottom, she and Dukat clasped hands.

    “You look stunning, my love,” Dukat said.

    “So do you,” Dani said, beaming at him. She walked with him into the dining room and stopped short. Ornate candelabras with real burning candles adorned the table. Freshly cut roses decorated the room. She turned to Dukat. “You did this?”

    He answered by lifting her hand to his lips and kissing it. He led her to her seat at the table and seated her before walking around and taking his own seat.

    “Marac, what is going on?” Dani finally asked. “I know there has got to be some reason for all of this. No one would go through the trouble of setting up all this for nothing.” She couldn’t believe Dukat had planned this simply because he felt like doing it. There was a reason behind it. There was always a reason for the things Dukat did.

    “You’re right,” Dukat said. She was so sharp and attentive. It was one of the many things he loved so much about her. She was always calling him on things.

    “There is a reason. A very good one, which you will find out shortly” Without any prompting, two servers emerged from the kitchen with platters of food. One server went to Dani, the other to Dukat. They delivered two elaborate meals, complete with glasses of water and kanaar, and left without a word, returning to their domain in the kitchen.

    Plucking her napkin from the table and gently spreading it across her lap, she eyed Dukat with mock suspicion. “Marac … what is this? Did something extraordinary happen concerning your work?”

    Spreading his own napkin over his lap, Dukat simply said, “No.”

    “Did something bad happen?” Dani asked, resorting to the other extreme of the possible spectrum.

    Dukat laughed. This was all very amusing. “No,” he said.

    Dani was beside herself with curiosity. Why did he always have to be so damn mysterious? “What, then?” she asked, frustrated.

    “In time, Danielle,” Dukat said, refusing to reveal any more than he wanted to. “Be patient.”

    Dani sighed. She hated playing this game, but Dukat wasn’t giving anything up, so she had no choice. She picked up her glass of water and drank from it, resolved to wait until Dukat deemed it appropriate to enlighten her. He just had everything planned so perfectly, didn’t he?

    So, when the door chime sounded, and Dani saw that Dukat hadn’t been expecting it to, her eyebrows shot up.

    Dukat was annoyed at the interruption to an evening for which he had planned every detail. He could’ve let Melba get it, but he wanted to see for himself who was at the door. He wanted to be the one to personally tell whoever was at the door that they were a nuisance.

    “I’ll take care of this,” he said, placing his napkin on the table and reluctantly rising from his seat. Before he left to go attend to the chiming door, he walked over to Dani. “I’m sorry about this. The evening was supposed to be flawless.”

    Dani grinned and shook her head. “You can’t control everything, Marac.”

    “I can try.” He bent down and kissed her in such a manner that she didn’t want to let him go. “I’ll be right back,” he assured her.

    “You’d better. You have to tell me what all this is about.” Dani watched him walk out of the dining room.

    Dukat marched straight through the living room to the foyer, where he opened the front door. The irritation that marred his features disappeared when he saw who was standing in his doorway.

    “I told you that woman would be the death of you.”

    In front of Dukat stood Tulane with hand phaser pointed directly at him.

    “Tulane?” Dukat asked, understandably puzzled. This was supposed to be his friend, his confidant. What was he doing pointing a weapon at him? What had happened to the guards that were supposed to be patrolling the grounds? And who were the two masked figures who accompanied Tulane?

    “You should have listened to me, Marac,” the older man said, stepping into the house, uninvited. “Now, it’s too late.”

    Too late? Dukat questioned silently. For what? Aloud, he asked, “Tulane, what are you doing here? You’re interrupting a very important evening.” He was backing up as Tulane and his companions advanced into the house.

    “Where is she?” Tulane demanded.

    “Marac, who is it?” they all heard Dani call.

    In the dining room, Dani wondered why Dukat hadn’t answered her. She stood and walked toward the living room, wondering if this was supposed to be her big surprise. The thought quickly fled her mind when she saw the scene currently unfolding in the living room. “Marac?” she said, alarm rising in her voice at the sight of the phaser pointed directly at Dukat.

    “No, Danielle,” Dukat commanded. “Stay right there.”

    Dani knew Dukat well enough to know that she should listen to him and do what she said. But she couldn’t do it. Not this time. Not when he was obviously in such imminent danger. She walked over to him anyway, and stood behind him.

    “Marac, who are these people?” she asked.

    “Lt. Janeway – there are a lot of people waiting for you back in the Federation,” Tulane told her.

    Dani looked up at Dukat. This was a rescue attempt? Here she was again, she realized. Back in that dreaded situation again. A choice to be made between two very different lives. But the choice was already made. She found herself shaking her head. She wasn’t leaving him, not after all they had been through.

    “Lieutenant, if you would please come with us,” Tulane urged.

    “I’m not going anywhere,” Dani said defiantly. She slipped her hand into Dukat’s

    “Lieutenant, these men are with Starfleet,” Tulane persisted. “They’re here to take you back to Federation space.”

    Dani glanced at the masked figures, paying particular attention to their rifles. The did appear to be Starfleet-issue. But she couldn’t just go off with these people because they happened to have Starfleet weapons.

    “Danielle, you must go with these men,” Dukat said. “For your own safety.”

    Dani looked up at Dukat and shook her head again. “How can you say that? I’m not leaving you. I love you.”

    Dukat placed his hands on Dani’s arms and looked deeply into her eyes. “I love you, too, Danielle, which is why you have to go with them. Please.” He saw that she looked like she was relenting and he nodded. He delivered a brief kiss to her lips. “It will be all right.”

    Dukat turned his attention back to Tulane. “I’ve got something in my pocket,” he said, moving to reach into the side pocket of his jacket. “I’m just reaching for it. It isn’t a weapon.”

    “Keep your hands where I can see them,” Tulane barked.

    “It isn’t a weapon,” Dukat insisted. “But it’s something I must give her before she leaves.”

    “Don’t move, Marac. I’m warning you.”

    Dukat seemed to ignore Tulane, proceeding to reach into his pocket. He had to get this to her. What if he never saw her again? In one swift move, he turned to Dani and pulled something out of his pocket. But Dani never got the chance to see what it was, and Dukat didn’t get the chance to tell her. Dani heard a soft mechanical whine and saw Dukat’s face take on the most peculiar expression. He looked as if he couldn’t quite comprehend the situation, his brows knitted and his lips slightly parted.

    “Marac?” Dani said, fighting to subdue the panic rising within her.

    Dukat lost his balance and grasped at Dani. She caught him as best as she could, but he was two heavy, and they fell to the floor together, despite Dani doing her best to lower him gently. It was only then that she realized what had happened. She looked down at his chest where the fatal wound that was draining the life from him had landed. The tears instantly sprung to her eyes. She looked at him, his head resting in her lap. She leaned down and kissed him gently on the lips, knowing it would be the last time.

    “This … this is it, my love,” Dukat said. “All the times people have tried to kill me … and now has to be the time they get it right.”

    “Shh, don’t say that. We’ll get you to a hospital, and everything will be fine. Just like it was before,” Dani said, lying to herself more than anyone else.

    “Tell Ziyal I’m sorry … for everything. I … “

    “I’ll tell her, but I suspect she already knows it all.”

    Dukat closed his eyes briefly. He knew that. Ziyal was a survivor. If she could last years as a Breen prisoner … When he opened his eyes again, he could no longer see. “Danielle?”

    “I’m here,” she said. “I’m right here.” She picked up his hand.

    “Danielle, I love you,” Dukat managed. “You … you would have made … an excellent wife.”

    “You would have made an even better husband,” Dani replied. “You could cook.” She saw him smile … and then she saw the light fade from his blue eyes. “Marac?” She touched his face. “Marac?” The panic she had been fighting surfaced. “Oh, gods,” her voice cracked. “No, no. Please. Please don’t leave me again.”

    She looked up at Tulane and the two masked men, desperate. For what, she didn’t know. Dukat was gone, and she knew that, but she couldn’t just … “Help me,” she pleaded. “Please!” It was as if her cries fell on deaf ears. They all just stood there, like statues. When she realized they weren’t going to do anything, her anger flared. “You bastards!” She carefully eased his head out of her lap and onto the floor.

    Her teary eyes wondered over to Dukat’s right hand, which still clutched the object he’d taken from his pocket. It lay there, as if presenting itself to her, a small black box. Dani picked it up, curious, and something told her that this had been the surprise Dukat had been planning.

    Dani opened the little box and gasped. The tears began to flow freely again as she picked up the beautiful ring that was nestled in the box and looked at it. The puzzle of the night came together, and Dani realized what the purpose of it all was, why Dukat had wanted it so perfect. This ring coupled with Dukat’s final words made it all so clear, and it made it all hurt that much worse.

    When Dani felt a hand gently tugging at her elbow, she pulled away. “Get the fuck away from me.”

    “We have to leave. Without Dukat’s protection, they’ll tear you apart if you stay here.”

    Dani looked up. One of the masked men was speaking to her. He had a deep, soothing voice. “I know it hurts,” he said. “But he’s gone. Nothing you say or do is going to bring him back. You still have a chance to save yourself. Please come with us. From what it sounded like, he would have wanted it that way.” It was the truth, hard and cold, and Dani realized it for what it was. She looked up into a pair of kind, blue eyes, and let the man help her up off the floor. He led her away from Dukat’s body, toward the foyer. Dani wanted to look back, one last time, but seeing him, what was left of him…

    “Don’t look back,” the masked man advised. “It’ll make it all that much more difficult.”

    Dani heeded the advice and instead looked down at the ring she now held in her hand as she was led from the house. The excited bark of a dog caught everyone’s attention, and Dani suddenly remembered. She turned to see Sherlock running toward her from the side of the house. She’d forgotten all about him. She quickly slipped the ring onto the finger for which she knew it was meant, and bent down to pick up the small dog. Once Sherlock was securely snuggled in his owner’s arms, Dani turned again and let herself be led toward the transport that was sitting on the lawn.

  • Sweetest Sin – Chapter 7. Reunion

    Dani’s eyes scanned the news report she had downloaded into the PADD. She sat comfortably on the sofa in the living room reading. She had learned from the mistake she had discovered nearly a month ago – always keep up with the news. She looked up when Dukat entered.

    “Hello,” she greeted with a smile.

    “Hi,” he said. He walked over and sat down beside Dani. After he kissed her, he asked, “How are you feeling?”

    “Fine,” she said. “How was your day?”

    “Enlightening. I’ve got some news for you.”

    “Me?” Dani sat up a little straighter in her seat. “What is it about?”

    “Some Starfleet representatives want to meet with you. In order to ensure your welfare.”

    “Do you know who?” Dani asked.

    “Yes. Captain Picard, Admiral Janeway, and Commander Riker.” Dukat watched all the color drain from Dani’s face. “What’s wrong? I thought you would be happy.”

    “I am,” Dani said, “but it’s just a little … weird.” What perfect timing, Dani thought acerbically. At least she wasn’t showing that much, yet, as she was only two months pregnant.

    “Now, don’t get worked up over it,” Dukat said. “If you don’t want to meet with them, I’ll come up with an excuse.”

    “No, I do. Believe me, I do. When?”

    “Will next week be too soon for you?” Dukat asked.

    “No,” Dani replied. “It’ll be perfect.” How could she not get worked up, nervous, anxious about this? It was easier said than done. She took a deep, calming breath. She had a whole week to prepare herself for this encounter. Would that be enough?

    Xxx

    Will Riker didn’t like the look of this place. He didn’t like it two months ago, when he was last there, and he certainly didn’t like it now. He looked at his two companions, Admiral Kathryn Janeway and Captain Jean- Luc Picard, and could tell that they didn’t like it either.

    All of them sat on one side of a rectangular table inside a visiting room at Plakar Labor Camp on Cardassia Prime. They were there to visit Dani.

    Will didn’t know why they were all meeting at the camp. He along with both the admiral and the captain knew that Dani wasn’t living at the camp. She probably hadn’t set foot inside it since that day when she’d made that fateful decision, the day when she’d chosen Dukat over him.

    The three of them, Picard, Riker, and Janeway, had been waiting in the uncomfortably warm room for almost an hour when the large double doors on the other side of the room slowly swung open toward them. Two armed guards entered, first.

    And then, there she was. The three Starfleet officers stood as Dani Janeway walked toward them with a guard who appeared to be unarmed at her side.

    When she’d crossed half the distance to the table, Dani stopped walking and looked at Rowat. He nodded and remained where he was as Dani began walking again. She sat in the chair opposite Riker, Picard, and her mother, who all reclaimed their seats once she was seated.

    Dani smiled at them, though she didn’t really know what to say. “Hi,” she said.

    Riker, Picard, and Janeway looked at each other, not certain of what to say either. Janeway spoke first. “Hello, Dani,” she began. “How are you doing?”

    “I’m fine,” Dani replied. “Really.”

    “How has Legate Dukat been treating you?” Picard asked instinctively. Despite the passage of time, his experiences as a prisoner of the Cardassians was still a clear memory. He had no illusions as to what they were capable of.

    “They’ve treated me very well here,” was Dani’s reply. She almost wanted to say she was happy but didn’t, thinking better of it.

    “I’m glad to hear that,” Will said. His eyes fell to her left hand, and he saw that she no longer wore his engagement ring.

    Dani followed Will’s gaze to her hand and realized what must be going through his head. She self-consciously clasped her hands together.

    “Where are you staying?” Will asked.

    “I can’t tell you that,” Dani said apologetically. She saw the three officers across from her look at each other, alarmed. “It isn’t as if he would ever hurt me. He would never dream of it. In fact, he takes a number of precautions to ensure my safety. It’s just … it’s really for the best if I don’t tell you.” Dani realized that they probably didn’t know how difficult it was for her to tell them that.

    “Dani,” Picard spoke up, “we just want you to know that we are doing everything in our power to negotiate for and secure your release.”

    Dani looked at the captain. Release? But … she didn’t want to leave. “I appreciate that, Captain,” she said.

    The captain continued. “We all realize the sacrifice you made for the ambassador’s welfare, but Ambassador Starr is now safe and at a secure location. The Federation and Starfleet are eternally grateful for what you’ve done, Dani. Offering yourself to the Cardassians as a trade-off … I must say, that was a stroke of brilliance.”

    “You can expect a warm reception when you return,” Kathryn said.

    Right now, Dani felt like the biggest fraud in the universe. She was in this situation for purely selfish reasons, and people were making a hero out of her for it.

    “Dani, we’re working on a way to get you out,” Picard said. “We’re exploring every possible avenue. We’re going to get you back to Federation space.”

    Dani stared at him blankly. “Thank you for your efforts,” she said. That was all she had to say on the subject. It was all she could say while remaining honest. She shifted gears and went on to something safer. She looked at her mother. “How is everyone? How’s Dad?”

    “Your father’s fine,” Kathryn said. “He’s worried about you, of course, but now that I can tell him you’re fine, I’m sure that will make him feel a little better.”

    “I’m glad,” Dani said. “Send him my love, okay?”

    “Of course,” Kathryn agreed.

    Dani nodded and slowly stood. “I guess we’re finished then?”

    Janeway, Riker, and Picard stood, all obviously surprised by the brief nature of encounter. Cardassian officials had told them they wouldn’t have very long with Dani, but Picard wondered if five minutes had even passed since Dani first entered the room. He wondered if Dani had been given special instructions to keep their meeting brief, possibly to prevent certain things from being discussed, he surmised. “Yes,” Picard said. “I suppose we are.”

    Dani walked around the table to her mother. “Chin up,” Kathryn told her daughter. “We’ll have you out of here in no time.”

    Dani managed a weak smile as she hugged her mother. The two parted, and Dani looked to Captain Picard next. She shook his hand, and then looked from her to his first officer.

    “We’ll be outside,” Kathryn told Will and Dani.

    Dani looked at her mother and started to tell her that the time alone with Will wasn’t necessary, but the admiral and the captain were already heading for the double doors. Dani turned back to Will. Maybe they did need some time alone. Completely alone. She looked back at Rowat. He nodded and left the room, taking the two guards at the door with him. Dani turned back to Will. She sat down in one of the nearby chairs.

    “How are you doing?” Will asked. “Really.”

    “I’m doing very well,” Dani replied. “Really.”

    “And Dukat?”

    “He’s good. He treats me very well.”

    “What happened to your ring?” Will asked.

    Dani looked down at her bare fingers. “I didn’t see any reason to keep wearing it,” she said honestly. “I didn’t … I thought my life in Starfleet was over.”

    “The ambassador made sure that wasn’t the case,” Will commented.

    “I know.”

    Will sat on the table. “Dani, I don’t really know what to say.”

    “You and me both.” Dani stood, turning her back to Will and taking a few steps away from him. “I don’t exactly know where this leaves us, Will.”

    “You would be better-suited than I am to address that. You’re the one holding all the cards.” Will stood and walked over to her. “What do you want to do?”

    Dani shook her head and turned to face him, finally. “I don’t think it would be very fair to you.”

    “You don’t think what would be fair to me?”

    “It wouldn’t be fair to you if we tried to continue with our relationship,” Dani said. She reached into her pocket and pulled out the piece of jewelry that had been her engagement ring. She turned around, picked up Will’s hand, and placed the ring in it.

    “I lose, then, Imzadi,” Will said looking at the ring.

    Dani couldn’t take it anymore. She couldn’t bear to hear Will call her that even one more time. She had hated it from the moment he started it. It was time to set the record straight. “I can’t do it, Will. I’m not your imzadi. But I think you know that already.”

    Will nodded. He knew. That didn’t mean he hadn’t wanted it to be true. “Deanna … ” Will trailed.

    “Will, you two have a connection,” Dani told him. “We have one, too, but it isn’t like the one you share with her. It’s different, and you know it. What are you doing with me?”

    Will knew she was right. Admitting to himself that she was right was difficult. He’d wanted to make their relationship work, but what he should’ve been concentrating on all this time was Deanna. It had taken Dani being away from him to realize that.

    “Besides, there’s something else I want to tell you,” Dani said. She walked over and sat down again. “I don’t really know how I should say it, though. It’s going to be quite a shock for you.”

    Will sat down in a seat next to Dani’s. “Just say it. Whatever it is. What do you need to tell me?”

    Dani took a deep breath. Why was she doing this? She couldn’t answer that question; she just couldn’t keep it a secret from everyone. She already felt bad about not telling her mother. Someone should know. “Will, I’m pregnant.”

    The first question that sprang into Will’s head was ‘Who’s the father?’ Dani answered the question before he could ask it.

    “It’s Dukat’s,” she said.

    Will’s heart sank. He had hoped that maybe it was his, possibly conceived before this whole mess had started. But he’d also known that the chances of that were slim to none. “How far along are you?” he asked.

    “About two months,” Dani said. “Will, please don’t tell anyone about this. I want to do it when I’m ready. That’s why I didn’t tell my mother today.”

    “You know I won’t say anything unless you want me to,” Will said. “Does Dukat know?”

    “He does.”

    “How did he take the news?” He figured the last thing Dukat needed was another half-Cardassian child. Will knew it would probably wreak havoc in the man’s professional life.

    “He’s elated,” Dani said with a smile.

    Will’s eyebrows rose at the statement. ‘Elated’ hadn’t exactly been the word that he’d expected to hear. So, that was it then. Dani and Dukat were just going to be one, big, happy family. “Is it safe to say that you don’t want to leave here, then?”

    “I can’t answer that. I don’t know. It’s like…” she sighed. “I do because I want to come home, but I don’t because this has kind of become my home. It isn’t as easy as simply saying that I want to stay or go. Does that make any sense?”

    “Surprisingly it does,” Will said. He stood. “I’m glad you’re okay.”

    Dani stood. “I’m glad you can understand my situation, and I want to thank you. For everything.”

    Will pulled her to him in an embrace. “Good luck, Dani.”

    “You, too.” They parted, and Dani watched him walk away from her and out the double doors across the room.

    Xxx

    “Danielle!” Dukat called out. “I’m home!”

    “I’m in the kitchen!” Dukat heard her call out. He walked across the living room to the kitchen entrance. Dani was standing at the counter sipping something out of a mug. The aroma was too faint for Dukat to put a finger on exactly what it was.

    “Hello,” he said, stepping into the kitchen.

    Dani watched him stroll into the room with a confident smile. She grinned when he bent down to kiss her. “How was your day?”

    “Delightful,” Dukat replied.

    Dani offered her mug to him. “You wanna try some?”

    Dukat looked at her, unsure about the substance. “What is it?”

    “Raktijino,” Dani replied.

    “Ugh!” Dukat scoffed. “Why are you drinking that awful Klingon excuse for coffee?”

    “Because it’s good. You should try it some time.” Dani took another sip of the drink.

    “No, thank you. I think I’ll stick with my tea.” He watched her drink from the mug again. “Will that concoction have any effect on our child?”

    “Well, usually the caffeine would be an issue, but this is decaf,” Dani explained. “The only effect I could foresee is eventually having someone else around here who likes raktijino.”

    “Wonderful,” Dukat deadpanned. “I have a surprise for you.”

    “What kind of surprise?”

    “A good one.” Dukat relieved Dani of her mug and placed it on the countertop. He took her hand and led her into the living room. “Wait here,” he instructed.

    “Okay … ” Dani said. She watched Dukat walk out the front door. After a few moments, the doors slid open, but it wasn’t Dukat who entered the house. Instead, a small brown and white puppy with floppy ears sprinted into the house. Dani smiled and crouched down to meet the puppy, which ran right to her and immediately proceeded to lick her face excitedly. Dani looked up at Dukat, who was standing near the front door. “What is this?” she asked him?

    “He’s for you,” Dukat said. “He’s the surprise.”

    “Oh, Marac … ” Dani looked down at the dog, stroking his shiny coat. “He’s adorable.”

    Dukat walked over and crouched beside Dani. “His name is Sherlock,” he informed her. “He’s already been house broken, and is here purely for your comfort and enjoyment.”

    Dani gazed down at her new furry companion. “Sherlock … “

    Xxx

    Three days later, Dukat regretted ever having laid eyes on Sherlock. He sat on his bed, looking down with dismay at the mangled boot in his hands. It was the third one in two days. That dog was supposed to be housebroken. When the trader had told him it was, Dukat had naturally assumed that included knowing the difference between a chew toy and a shoe. That’s what he got for doing business with a Ferengi.

    Dukat huffed with frustration. He would have to replicate a replacement shoe. He hated wearing replicated clothing. They were so inferior to handmade goods.

    Dani walked into the bedroom and stopped short when she saw the gnarled shoe in Dukat’s hand. “Another one?” she asked.

    “I don’t know what is wrong with that dog,” Dukat fumed.

    “He’s probably just getting used to his new surroundings,” Dani defended.

    Dukat stood and walked over to the recycler. He tossed the remains of the shoe into the little cubby hole and punched in some commands on the console. The shoe disappeared as its particles were broken down and reintegrated into the system’s resources.

    Dani walked slowly over to Dukat. “If he’s so much trouble, which he seems to be for you, we can always get rid of him,” she offered. “We could put him up for adoption or trade …it wouldn’t be that big of a deal. I haven’t gotten that attached to him anyway.” Dani could see how much trouble Sherlock was for Dukat and even though she had fallen helplessly in love with the dog, she would be willing to get rid of it, unfortunately, if it meant she wouldn’t have to endure anymore of Dukat’s rumblings about him. Almost from the moment the dog had entered the house, he’d been a source of irritation for Dukat.

    Dukat knew Dani’s proclamation was a lie. Over the past three days, Dani had nearly been inseparable from that dog. She’d be crushed if he told her they had to get rid of it. “No, no,” Dukat said. “I suppose I’m just being a bit of a grouch. He isn’t going anywhere. He’s your dog, now. He makes you happy, so obviously he has to stay.”

    Dani smiled and delivered a kiss to Dukat’s mouth. “Rowat and I will go into the city today and pick up some more shoes for you,” she told him.

    “Thank you, my dear,” Dukat said. Dani walked out of the bedroom, and he turned grudgingly to the replicator and input specifications for a new pair of shoes, size eleven.